Updated: Jul 26, 2021
I recently prayed and meditated asking Christ for my next step. I closed my eyes and leaned back to listen. He said, "Rise, take up they bed, and walk." (JOHN 5:8 KJV)
I knew the story. In my mind, I saw the paralytic man seeking healing at the pool of Bethesda. He could not get to the healing waters and had spent years of his life stuck in misery. I thought that message was unusual directed to me. I was not paralyzed.
I continued to ponder and realized this man was there waiting to be healed. He was hoping his life could miraculously change, but he was stuck in his pain. I thought about my own journey of healing. My healing had been long and difficult, but I'd had my own miracle. I was recently healed of some life-long challenges. Christ had healed me and I reminded Him of that. He agreed and asked,
"Then why are you still sitting by the pool?"
The words sank deep into my heart. I was in awe of the healing, but I hadn't moved because I was afraid it wouldn't last. I realized Christ told the man to rise and walk so he wouldn't stay in his old ways, thoughts, habits, and surroundings. The healed soul needed to move forward to create a new life.
When we heal, we need to embrace it, move forward, and create something new. Otherwise, we remain 'paralyzed' in our doubt and fear. The familiar is comfortable. Sometimes, as we hold onto that comfort, we miss the chance to truly step into healing, change and growth.
I took up my bed and walked this week: I walked away from trauma, memories, pain, and thought patterns that no longer serve me. I no longer belong in that place.
I am grateful for Jesus Christ, who is not only my Savior and healer, but also a gentle teacher who is guiding me one day at a time to become more whole.
PS If you want to see a beautiful portrayal of this story, it if featured in The Chosen Season 2, episode 4. Season 1 is available to watch on youtube. Download the app to watch episodes from season 2.